And We're Gonna Let it Burn

I don't have much to update. I'm freezing. It's about 42 degrees outside, but there has been a chill in my bones all week that I can't make go away no matter how high I turn the heater up to. I will have to buy some warm things today for I fear I may frost over or my fingers fall off.

Was still 147.4, but at least that reading of 149 something was an error. That's what I was after work last night, and again this morning. I started my cycle this morning as well, so I'm guessing my weight may not budge until after it's gone (I hear that's normal, though I can't say I ever took notice before). Slept soundly finally last night, which was quite nice. I guess this may mean I don't know for sure if I've hit 145 for concert tomorrow, as I had planned, since the reading may not be too accurate due to cycle. I felt as though I'd been losing some inches at least, in my rib area and thighs and chest. This morning I noted a definitely loss of the pooch my tummy's been hanging onto, and it looked significantly more trim, so that was nice. Even my tan was quite even.

I feel like I cannot deal with work right now; This may be alot my own fault, not giving myself the energy to properly handle issues, but all yesterday I just wanted it to be over, and all today I feel as though problems are coming at me from every side. Work I've been putting off is catching up to being a big pile on my to-do list, when normally I'm all over it. I think hubs is kind of over hearing me be insecure all the time, he seems distant. I suppose he's often that way though.

Last night I just had a hot mug of chicken broth to warm me, and an unsolicited 50 cal fruit strip. So I guess I was about 550 instead of 500. It's my 2/11 ABC day, which is 500 again. This morning was coffee and a granola bar (same as yesterday) for 140 calories. Had a hot chicken broth mug and a mello yello zero (I don't often drink diet pop anymore, but it's an occasional treat). I've got a yogurt and soup for later in the work day, leaving me about 120 to have a mango tonight for dinner. (Mmm...)

I wish my weight wasn't so stubborn, and I wish I had hit my goal. Because of the way I look and the way my pants are fitting, I'm guessing maybe I did and it just isn't showing due to cycle weight perhaps? That's what I'm hoping.

I'm off to buy some warm things for an early lunch break at Meijer. I'm thinking maybe fingerless gloves, cuddledud thermals, and fuzzy socks. :) I may update later. Thinspo maybe? Wish anyone was following me, or reading this too. I could use some comments/encouragement!