Genesis

Innumerable blogs and journals. What's another? I enjoy reading the blogs of others travelling my same path of eating disorders - Those who are saddened by it, though relish and protect it. If I am encouraged by reading their path, perhaps writing my own out may also help. If nothing else, it may create a dome of accountability that I otherwise would not have in my personal and penned accounts.

I have a shorter journey than I used to. 
HW: 174
LW: 107
CW: 149.8
GW1: 118
I bounce around quite alot, and though I despise that I let my current weight get back to where it is after marriage, it is time to take control and begin again. Around this time last year, my stable weight was about 124 before it began going back up. I have lost about 10 lbs since I began taking back control, for I was already up to #160 again before I pulled the reigns taut. Holiday time is my motivation.

This is the year. I love holidays with ever fiber of my soul. There is always a nagging failure keeping me from fully enjoying them; I know that they will have come and gone, and I could not love them and be comfortable because some food was more important than spending the holiday at my goal weight... Than the pure joy and peace that would come from feeling as close to perfect as I ever may. So this is my journey of increments. The journey of a thousand miles and my thousand single steps. I will not spend THIS years' holidays feeling that way...Will. Not.

Here are the short/long term goals:
-6 days until a concert with a friend: I've been working on being at least 145# for this (at a plateau).
-7 days until Halloween: #144, and also hits the mark for a reward
-14 days until my 6 month anniversary and most anticipated concert date of the year: #134, a number I shall discuss at another time.
-35days until Thanksgiving: GW (#118), it is going to be very, very tight.
-60 days until Christmas Eve: To at LEAST maintain my #118, or perhaps by then I will have a new goal (hmm...)

I've noted that I do better with short goals to look at with short term rewards, then to only have the discouraging big picture. It helps to know I HAVE been there many times, which means I've GOTTEN there many times, and that I feel so much better when I've arrived. It can be done, it has been done, and it will be done. #118 is still allusive to me but maybe once or twice, and I cannot recall what it feels or looks like. But that's where I will be. I have a list of rewards that I may share in an upcoming post, or perhaps as I hit them. My main goal for right now, is to make sure I hit #145 by the concert/girls night out. That leaves me with 4.8lbs in 6 days. Today I'm trying to decide if I should break my plateau or continue with my liquid intake.

Please follow my journey; The road is easier to travel with friends beside me.