Skinny Jeans and Scarves

After I wrote that last night, I found myself with a clementine, craving pasta something fierce, ate a few peanuts, and then next I knew I was into the dried apricots, and then my face was in the peanut butter jar. I wouldn't call it a binge, except for the crazy amounts of calories that are in 2 spoonfuls of peanut butter that I ate. My state of mind was that of a binge though, so that is what we will call it. At least I denied the pasta craving. =(

I didn't weigh myself this morning, as all I felt was bloat. However, I've been in the bathroom all day with a sour stomach, and I'd have to guess (sorry for the TMI) most of it has been "released." I still have the sour stomach, so I'm guessing more bathroom time, but I don't feel anymore bloat or food weight.

Today I had coffee and a banana (105) along with my lunch being Progresso light chicken noodle soup (140). I'm set at the 300 cal limit today, and have a 40 cal miso soup packet waiting for me, but I just have been too lazy to make it or go out and get something else. When I think of the large scope of how slow my plateau is budging, it makes me very discouraged. I still have a feeling though that if I continue to follow ABC if nothing else, it always budges. I just need to be patient and get past the 500 cal starter days. I was silly to expect the plateau would budge on those days, since that's probably about how much I eat on a typical day anyway, if I'm not on a plan of any kind. I'm getting really worried about not making my goal for the holiday.

I guess after my cycle, it will show if I've dropped more than scale is reading right now. And maybe once I break this plateau it will fall off for a couple lbs. I'm hoping. I've never really run into such a problem but maybe once or twice. I've got that concert tonight, and I'm guessing I'm not #145 as hoped, but probably something like #147 or so. 8 days until anniversary/concert and 29 days until Thanksgiving. I must lose exactly a lb a day to be my goal weight by then, as I have 29 lbs to lose.

Le sigh.